Communicating without seeing
Today in the tea break in between Anapatasati and the Punja. The room was loud, at least 25 people, everyone seemed to be talking except me, but I did not feel for once like I was missing out. I think because of Natsumi, I am starting to feel excited by not being heard, to exist at a different momentum to others.
I started to imagine me being able to turn the volume of the people in the room up and down. I could turn people on an off with my mind. I also thought about this as a role playing workshop or game.
Another thing I thought about today when I was sat in the steam room. There was just me and this other lady. The room was so full of steam I could only make out the outline of her. She asked me something in an annoyed tone. I couldn’t make out what she was saying, I thought she might be complaining about the shower in the steam room is leaking and it’s making a weird sound, but finally I understood her. She could hear the sound of a phone outside of the steam room and she was saying that its not allowed and was saying stuff about it. I couldn’t hear the sound of the phone myself. Every so often she would say something to me and then I would try to listen as best as I could but each time I could hardly make out what she was trying to communicate apart from her frustration energy.
I wondered if I could see her face would I be able to make out what she was saying better? I thought about how this could also make an interesting roleplaying game for everyone to wear masks and they cant see each other’s facial expressions and try to have a conversation with each other then write out how we all feel afterwards.
*image of artwork by Mary Shaffer